Wednesday, December 16, 2009
My Birthday Wish to You, Silly Sam.....
19 year's ago today, is a day that will be hard to forget, for me its the real Mothers Day...

Samantha likes to think that she is the reason that life took a turn for the worse for me, that unmentionable baby weight that still hangs around certain parts of my anatomy and so on goes the list... But what she doesn't know is...

On that day I truly started a life with purpose... Really, until that day I had not decided what direction I was headed in.... Then in one moment, her first breath it all click into to place.

I remember looking at her the first time after everyone finally left us alone. Her tiny eyelashes, her perfect little feet, her cute heart shaped lips, tiny nose...and I couldn't believe she was real, this was my daughter, so perfect... Then she let out a howl, that freaked us both out... I guess she was chilly...

She was a good baby... a happy little soul that seemed just happy to be here. When she started to crawl, I could always find her by looking for the dog... Newton (our very large Doberman) was her keeper and she was always right behind him and if she made a move in the wrong direction he would whine. When she started to walk, she never strayed too far...but when she started to climb...no tree was safe and my heart was in a constant state of panic, my neck still hurts from searching the trees..

When I think about the adult she has become what comes to mind is a strong, independent women that is a champion for friends, family and the underdogs... She has low tolerance for bullies and mean people and doesn't hesitate to voice her opinion on any situation she views as unjust.

So, today, I want to thank her... for the direction I couldn't not see then... every stone on the path we walked together, every puddle we jumped... I look forward to seeing the directions you head on your own to make your own slice of life.

Happy Birthday, Samantha Renee........